Hey, friends! Sorry I haven’t posted much this past week, I just started graduate school to get my second masters degree in addiction counseling, so I’m trying to get into a “routine” so to speak. But, even though things have been a little stressful, I have not picked up a single drink. 76 days sober today! Hard to believe my 90 days is coming up! My last post was a bit depressing, I examined 5 reasons why I got sober. Let’s face it, many alcoholics don’t feel too great about themselves when they make the brave choice to get sober. So, I’ve had over two months of sobriety and I wanted to share 5 reasons why I’m happy to be sober!
1.) I Haven’t Felt This “Clear Minded” For Years!
When I was active in my drinking, I was extremely depressed. When I walked into my first AA meeting, I was in a bit of an alcoholic “fog”, and it took me about two weeks to get out of it. Once I sobered up and let my brain heal from all the toxicity, I felt a sense of hope and peace. I can confidently say that I have never been this happy in my entire life. My family and friends say that I’m pleasant to be around, and I don’t seem so withdrawn. When I was depressed and drinking, I didn’t want to leave my apartment. Now, I am out of the house all the time! Just last weekend, I went to the Toledo Zoo, the musical Chicago (my favorite musical!), putt putting, and the batting cages. I want to participate in activities that don’t involve alcohol- and by God they’re fun! I am finally enjoying life again.
2.) My Physical Health Has Dramatically Improved.
As I said in my past post, my physical health was deteriorating. Since I decided to get sober, I have lost 27 lbs., and my cholesterol dropped a whopping 100 points. I am able to do strenuous activity without gasping for breath, and I’m not nursing hangovers every morning. My hands no longer shake from alcohol withdrawal. I no longer wake up with bruises from falling around all over the bar- I may or may not get bruises from being clumsy, but that’s beside the point! My body just “feels” healthy- and that’s something that feels amazing! Amazing how alcohol improves your body, mind, and spirit in so many ways!
3.) I Am More Honest Than I Have Ever Been in My Life.
Many alcoholics have the talent of being great liars and can manipulate almost any situation so that they can get their way. Now that I’m sober, I don’t have to hide anything- and that is one of the most freeing feelings ever! I don’t have to hide liquor bottles, I don’t have to hide my emotions, I don’t have to lie about what I’m doing or who I’m hanging out with. When I was in the heat of my addiction, the majority of my day was spent lying to my parents- and I was completely okay with it. Because alcohol came first in all of my affairs. Nobody else’s feelings mattered except for my own. Alcohol was my friend! Now that I’m “free”, I can tell the truth and not feel ashamed about what I’m doing.
4.) I Have Gained Some Amazing Friendships- True Friendships.
I have touched on this topic in a previous post, but I think it is so important to reiterate the friendships that I have gained in my 76 days of sobriety. When I was drinking, my friends were the ones who bought me alcohol or took me to the bar when I was having a bad day. I quickly learned that those individuals were not my friends, they were enablers. Now that I am in the program of Alcoholics Anonymous, I have gained true friendship. The people in the rooms of AA are some of the kindest, big-hearted people I know. I know AA isn’t for everybody, but it has certainly helped me!
5.) I Have Found My Passion.
When I was a practicing social worker, I thought that I could do my job efficiently because of everything that I have learned in school (5 years of it!). That was true to some extent, but it was somewhat hard for me to relate to my clients. Now that I have personal experience with alcoholism, no book can teach me how it truly feels to have an alcoholic brain. I had to experience and learn from it firsthand. I am no better than anyone else. Alcoholics Anonymous has taught me to be humble, which is something that I will always be grateful for. Because of my experience with alcoholism, it has driven me to write this blog and to go back to school for addiction counseling.